Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
you would think that since i had a boyfriend id be excited, having fun and doing shit. -_- nope
I have been here 18 days. been in the house 14 of these days.
I have no girlfriends to call and bug
I don't want to get shot, so im not going to the club.
yea, my life is fucking exciting. Christmas was good. I am blessed.
Monday, December 27, 2010
#iprefer to not be ignored; just respond
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Already had me a cheater and mistreater,
Already been with a flosser and smooth talker,
I've had a betrayer something like a player, but that ain't what I want no more,
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
8. Love of my life
10. Sweet; trying to think of a more masculine word for sweet.
bonus**** your the SHITTTT
and your perfect----> not really perfect but you know what i mean
and i love you
forever and always
people always admit to over-loving; but what exactly does that mean?
I can admit that love is a drug; definately not the drug I intended to be hooked on.
What is the cure for over-loving?
meeting someone who loves just as much and as hard as you?
Saturday, December 18, 2010
When you lose trust, you also lose your ability to fight back. The power of manipulation is real, I know someone who is extremely good at that. Men are extremely good at making you the bad guy when they messed up.
without trust, there is nothing.
when you lose trust, all there is doubts...mentally conquering the idea that you may not be the only girl.
mentally understanding that forgiving can be done but you must also let go of the issue and forget. You can't get to happy by always going through sad.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
I don't believe, we were put together, not to be together
And I don't believe, there's anyone out there, that can love me better
I don't believe, that you know how much I miss seeing your pretty smile
Of course we had our ups and downs, but I gotta have you around me cause
I love you. Fix us.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
believe in the 'you' that i want to believe in
i guess old habits don't die fast
i can't make a old man be a new man
i guess it doesn't make sense to fight if i don't plan on leaving you
why can't i leave you
leave you out cold, because i know your lying
your lies almost sounded believable
believable because i couldn't not believe you
you got caught, couldn't deal
i dealt, but i knew you were lying
i wanted to believe you
Friday, November 19, 2010
Men can't take the heat. They can dish it but cannot take it. Its not fair.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
I also believe that allowing people to continue to lie to you will cause you to finally leave over something small and minute.
So do you believe that it is ok to let someone continue lying because you would rather not be hurt? Sometimes lies just sound better than the truth. Or what about those guys who make you think they have been telling the truth but really they have been telling you the opposite of the truth?
"I just wanna be NUMB
I don't wanna feel a thing
I don't want reality
Actually, reality stinks"
Monday, September 27, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
You say that you love me...
are you telling the truth
You say that it's just me and you...
are you telling the truth
You say that we can conquer the world...
but i can barely conquer all of you...
are you telling the truth
You say if there is a storm, we can endure it together...
but it's storming outside
are you telling the truth
You say yes, but maybe you mean no
You said that everything would work out...
I'am still waiting
are you telling the truth
Im always waiting, but what am I waiting for?
Am I waiting for you to tell the truth???
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
I used to think that men could be faithful. I used to believe that I'd be 'practically engaged ' by now. But now, im not so sure. Men can be faithful as long as the women they are cheating on does not find out. I don't think that men understand. I don't think that I can fully understand allot of things. Especially not men, not love...none of it. I think I want to be in a relationship but just when i meet someone who i'd even like to be in a relationship with, they screw me over. I think its me. It has to be me.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Honestly, I don't think that I could be in love with two men. I couldn't be in love with two men because one of these men would feel like they were 2nd best and if I love you, you will always be number One. The reason I ask because recently at one of the weekly girl talk sessions we discussed this and it got me to thinking...'maybe, it is possible...'
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Inspired by my last post, I found some great quotes about the differences between men and women...Hopefully you enjoy :-)
God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him.
- There are two kinds of women: those who wish to marry, and those who haven't the slightest intention not to.
- To a single woman men are either dates, potential dates, or date substitutes.
"Women have a wonderful instinct about things. They can discover everything except the obvious."
"Young men want to be faithful, and are not; old men want to be faithless, and cannot."
"Men can be analyzed, women ... merely adored."
"Women have a wonderful instinct about things. They can discover everything except the obvious"
Saturday, June 12, 2010
In life sometimes you have to walk away from a situation before your in so deep that even if you tried to turn away and walk home you wouldn't even remember how to get home...
remember in my post "Me, him and her" my last line said that I wouldn't be caught slipping...but guess what....I slipped and fell and lost my damn mind. So last night my threesome ended. As for now that shit is over like last year. Last night, these last few nights actually have defined this thing that he and I had. I keep calling it a thing because at the end of the day it was all confusion. BUT anyways back to this one-some that im in; last night he and I were supposed to meet so that I could try and resolve this situation. but according to him 'something came up, and he wasn't near a phone...' clearly this fool traveled back to 1908 and there were no cell phones, no house phones..shit there was nothing. but anyway, I was stood up. WARNING, You may judge me for what I am about to confess...but honestly I don't care...because Im telling.
Friday, June 11, 2010
I never said I was interested in a three-some but I find myself in one right now. Me, him and her. When we met, I knew about her and I knew what he told me about her. I knew how he hated going home and how he said that he had to be stupid drunk to just be around her...The situation was a lot so I said ‘we can only be friends...’ but somewhere down the line just like we exchanged phone numbers, we exchanged feelings. He said they were over, but again the situation was still very sticky. Once we exchanged these feelings I forgot about her butsubconsciously I knew it was ME, HIM and HER. I knew it was her, when randomly he’d disappear or she’d call and the mood was altered. So the relationship between him and I changed and I find myself questioning his intentions. I knew about her not by name or anything but she is very much apart of this thing that he and I have. What are you supposed to do when your in a situation like this...and why do these ‘situations’ keep happening to me? And what are you supposed to do when feelings are involved? When we are together everyday, when he calls-my heart smiles, when I leave him- i miss him, when I see him- I have to kiss him...who’s fault is this? Recently, I’ve been wondering should I be ‘dating’ other people.We had ‘THE’ conversation and it was made clear that he didn’t expect me to date anyone but him. I didn’t say this to him but in the back of my mind im thinking...me and him. him and her. me, him and her. so am i only allowed to date him, and he can date me and her...huh? according to him, they are not dating...should I stop before it goes any further? I just smirked because im probably not going anywhere, but just don’t think i’ll be caught slipping.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
I remember my mother used to say lie, liar and all variations of the word 'lie' were bad words and I always thought she was childish for saying that but now as a semi-adult I understand. I hate being lied to, i hate being mislead. As a person you want me to believe your being honest and open with me when you are only telling me 50% of the truth and the rest is being left to my imagination. 50% of the truth is 100 lies. Maybe its just me, I say exactly what I mean and
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
and my guess is, if she never call well you get the message
you like whaaaat, you can’t call nobody
I’ve been trying to find you like Waldo shawty"
Saturday, May 29, 2010
i've been single. im currently in a relationship. i don't know how i like it, when your single you move on your own drum, when your in a relationship you move as a unit. Units? Me? I move as a single force; i like it that way. I like it, but im wondering "did my ex screw me over so bad, that i'd rather just be alone?" but wait--back to this relationship thing, how does this work again? Is the single Jasmin anti-relationship? or is the single Jasmin just not ready for the relationship Jasmin.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Even though I like you, I wont allow you to get the best of me!
Today someone asked me, what’s my favorite quote and I didn’t hesitate I said “those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind”. To me this quote sums up the relationship between people. This is the segue into my mind. I knew it was over before it began; the whole time Im doing this for me. Im talking about a guy…this guy is boy A. Me and boy A have been doing this thing…I wouldn’t call it talking, I wouldn’t call it dating…I would just call it a thing. This thing just got extremely strange.
I think im the reason that relationships don’t work out…I give too much in the beginning and I just do it because Im just a giving person. I treat every guy I DATE, and I mean date like a boyfriend even if I don’t want them to be my boyfriend; and what ive realized is that everyone doesn’t deserve the best of me (that means friends as well). I don’t mean I should be a bitch and give you nothing but I mean not everyone deserves to get the best of me. by the best of me, I mean not everyone deserves the treatment that I would give my potential boyfriend because then he expects the world when he’s just giving me Washington DC. And as I get older I understand what my daddy used to say….”don’t give major time to minor folks” every nigga (and I use the term loosely)does not deserve a woman to wash his clothes, cook for him and help him. i digress there are some amazing men. AMAZING but there are also some boys in men clothing. Pretending that they deserve a woman who will help to make them better but in actuality they are not prepared to handle such a woman…
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Prayer for Strength
In this time of need, strengthen me. You are my strength and my shield; You are my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. I know, Father, that Your eyes go to and fro throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts long for You. The body grows weary, but my hope is in You to renew my strength.
I do not fear, for You are with me.
I am not dismayed or overwhelmed, for You are my God. I know You will strengthen me and help me; that You will uphold me with Your righteous hand. Even as the shadows of illness cover me, I feel the comfort of Your strength, Or Lord.