Wednesday, February 16, 2011


this one is for you.

i never been so consumed by one person
never knew this kind of love
sometimes i know that we'll be together forever

i know we will
you know its hard being in a long distance relationship
i want you with me 98% of the time

I want to wake up and kiss you
roll over and hold your hand
i want to miss you, while you're in the bathroom
not while your a million miles away

i just love you...its crazy


hurts to know you still think about her...
do you dream about you and her?
think about what it would be like if it were you and her?

makes me wish you didn't know me
not that i didn't know you
because i couldn't replace you

i actually hate you for thinking about her
i hate you for missing her
i hate that you were here with me, and you were thinking about her

how can you love me, if you love her too?

Love is a Motherf@#$!

That's in my Diddy-Dirty Money voice

Yesterday, I fell in love
don't know why I gave my heart
if i had the chance to do it all over again

i would do it just like this.

you can't tell I f@#$ with you, i needed you

hold you, kiss you, miss you
need you, just like this

breathe you

couldn't get rid of you
give my all, you take it from me

touch you

just like this--> you like when I touch you like this
you need me to love you, you know
it feels good to hold me, you know

just like this

Endless love

Just think, what exactly does endless mean? Forever, with no exceptions?
But doesn't every situation have an exception? Or shouldn't it?
My journey to love has been a journey, filled with amazing ups and some low-lows.
But I won't go.
I feel like we, I mean I feel like I have been through so much with this love that I cant imagine quitting on it right now.
How could I quit on something that has made me happy, blissfully happy for almost a year now.?
But how can I love someone who loves someone else?
I mean you know they love you, but some part of them still loves HER.
I understand, you never had time to finish or get over it.
but why drag me and leave me?
why create a world, with living together and joint everything...only to leave me for her again.
It is actually embarrassing when I sit and think about all we've been through
and sometimes I ask, what am I gaining?
Did I gain a love, only to lose it?

As women, do we fall in love to be in love?
are we tired of being single, that we just enjoy the companionship?
 do we settle because we feel like maybe I could change you, maybe I could make you love me how I need to be loved
or maybe we start off and we see all the signs but we ignore, we ignore them because sometimes the wrong thing almost always feel like it's the right thing.
or maybe he does everything right, he just has a thing for other bitches sometimes...
maybe he's perfect, maybe he does everything right, maybe he loves you too good
maybe you should have met him in another lifetime
maybe we could be, when we were just we
maybe i'll lose you the way I got you
maybe we'll work out
maybe I shouldn't love you so much
maybe I should love you this much
maybe we're forever

hopefully, we'll be forever
all i wanted was your love
all i ever need was your love

don't ask for much

just need someone who wants to be with me and only me.

Monday, February 14, 2011