Friday, November 19, 2010

Don't ever hurt a man

How many times have you had your heart broken, been lied to, been cheated on, caught him doing something he wasn't supposed to be doing? How many times after all this happened to you, did you get up and just act like nothing happened because people make mistakes? But a man will hold his hurt for so long that there is nothing that you can do to fix it. Nothing. He can smile and its over. You can smile and he still wants to fight. You can smile and he can't believe that you would do anything to hurt him knowing it was him that drove you to that point. It was him who had his girlfriend playing on your phone, texting you and lying on you. It was him. But some guy, who YOU don't talk to happens to call you or text you and he wants to cause a war. Man, Whatever. Everything that has happened to me, has happened to me. You, you go through my phone and you search for something because no matter how much you say you believed me you searched because you've been waiting for me to fuck up. But this is not about me. This is general.
Men can't take the heat. They can dish it but cannot take it. Its not fair.

dead poets

this is one is for him:

hey you, i seen you in my dreams
i called after you
but you didnt turn around
i kept screaming your name
you didnt turn around
i guess i hurt you so bad that you couldnt remember the truth
couldnt remember that you hurt me too
couldnt remember how many times i cried for you
hey you, its me 
the girl who decided to stay because i knew it'd be worth it
the girl who forgave you and never brought it back up
hey you, its me
im suffering because i just want you to trust me again
i just want you to believe that i dont want anything else
i dont want to call another
i dont need to hear another voice
i dont need to see another face
kiss any other lips
i just need you; i just need us
i know its hard, it wasnt supposed to happen like this
you were always supposed to believe in me; 
i was never supposed to hurt and i was never ever in my life make you hurt
i can't keep saying sorry
because my heart and my soul and my whole being know how i feel about you
wouldn't trade you for the world...
take you on tour of my heart; so you can see the cracks that you fixed 
so you can see your name all over it
take you on tour of my brain; the left side where my thoughts come from and all my thoughts are hoping you come back in one piece. 
hey you, its the same me. just a mistake. nothing more.