Wednesday, August 31, 2011

it aint no sin

the only way to get to success is wrong by wrong....
she didnt say that, but that is what I internalized from get to happy by doing wrong...think about all successful people they have all been criminals or over-sexed

so here are some amazing quotes

A hard man is good to find.
Mae West 

A man has one hundred dollars and you leave him with two dollars, that's subtraction.
Mae West 

A man in the house is worth two in the street.
Mae West 

A man's kiss is his signature.
Mae West 

Any time you've got nothing to do and lots of time to do it come on up.
Mae West 

Don't keep a man guessing too long - he's sure to find the answer somewhere else.
Mae West

I only have 'yes' men around me. Who needs 'no' men?
Mae West 

I only like two kinds of men, domestic and imported.
Mae West 

I see you're a man with ideals. I better be going before you've still got them.
Mae West 

I speak two languages, Body and English.
Mae West 

It isn't what I do, but how I do it. It isn't what I say, but how I say it, and how I look when I do it and say it.
Mae West 

Sex is emotion in motion.
Mae West 

She's the kind of girl who climbed the ladder of success wrong by wrong.
Mae West 

You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.
Mae West 

Friday, August 12, 2011


I could walk away as soon as I meet someone new. I could leave you but I am truly still in love with you so I need to move on with a person. A living breathing loving man. 
or I could never date again because I am emotionally drained and scarred but I don't wanna be a bitter woman. 
I don't wanna be a lonely woman either but I don't wanna be a woman who needs a man. I feel like a woman who needs a man. I feel like I need him. When I broke up I felt like I needed him. I am an angry woman, an emotional woman, but it is all backed up love. 

what the fuck happened to the red jeep wrangler?? 
i hate the red jeep wrangler and everytime i see one i cringe

Saturday, August 6, 2011



Sunday, June 19, 2011

Inspiration is everywhere

When your down and out and all you have is YOU
look around and find the peace that YOU deserve

I found power in the things I used to ignore
damn, I was down and out
but He brought me up and in
comforted me, saved me
just when I needed the inspiration
the sun shined
i knew the pain was gone
because the sun shined just for me

Monday, June 6, 2011


thought about loving you
couldn't help myself
thought about believing you...
things didn't add up
wasn't prepared to love like this

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


I loved real, real hard once
But the love wasn't returned
Found out the man I'd die for
He wasn't even concerned
I tried, and I tried, and I tried
To keep him in my life
I cried, and I cried, and I cried
But I couldn't make it right
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love,
Then you'd understand

gave all my power

See, I thought this feeling
It was all that I had
But how could this be love
And make me feel so bad?
Gave up my power,
I existed for you
But whoever knew the voodoo you'd do?

And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be

Monday, May 9, 2011

Single. Again

Nope, I am not single
but I do feel as if either we are headed for departure
or we are headed for greatnesss

Case closed.

I cant even remember the last time i was happy with you.
i guess it was the last time i saw you
but shit,
i cant remember the last time i saw you
my memories fading away

memories of you and i happy
me and you happy

i dont fucking remember
i hate you
i dont believe in you
maybe i never believed in you
i was trying to create a new you for a new me
but i couldnt make an old you be a new you for me

trying to change you
makes me realize that i only changed me

Sunday, March 27, 2011

the relationship guide

why are relationships so hard? how do we make them work? how do we make them last? what is the worst thing in a relationship?? insecurity? being crazy?? lies???
they all make a relationship difficult, but how do we make it work?? if it cant work does that mean we arent meant to be?

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

i wish i never met you

i should have known from the beginning that we would fall apart
promises of forever linger in the air
i cant let you disrespect me, im a queen

Wednesday, February 16, 2011


this one is for you.

i never been so consumed by one person
never knew this kind of love
sometimes i know that we'll be together forever

i know we will
you know its hard being in a long distance relationship
i want you with me 98% of the time

I want to wake up and kiss you
roll over and hold your hand
i want to miss you, while you're in the bathroom
not while your a million miles away

i just love you...its crazy


hurts to know you still think about her...
do you dream about you and her?
think about what it would be like if it were you and her?

makes me wish you didn't know me
not that i didn't know you
because i couldn't replace you

i actually hate you for thinking about her
i hate you for missing her
i hate that you were here with me, and you were thinking about her

how can you love me, if you love her too?

Love is a Motherf@#$!

That's in my Diddy-Dirty Money voice

Yesterday, I fell in love
don't know why I gave my heart
if i had the chance to do it all over again

i would do it just like this.

you can't tell I f@#$ with you, i needed you

hold you, kiss you, miss you
need you, just like this

breathe you

couldn't get rid of you
give my all, you take it from me

touch you

just like this--> you like when I touch you like this
you need me to love you, you know
it feels good to hold me, you know

just like this

Endless love

Just think, what exactly does endless mean? Forever, with no exceptions?
But doesn't every situation have an exception? Or shouldn't it?
My journey to love has been a journey, filled with amazing ups and some low-lows.
But I won't go.
I feel like we, I mean I feel like I have been through so much with this love that I cant imagine quitting on it right now.
How could I quit on something that has made me happy, blissfully happy for almost a year now.?
But how can I love someone who loves someone else?
I mean you know they love you, but some part of them still loves HER.
I understand, you never had time to finish or get over it.
but why drag me and leave me?
why create a world, with living together and joint everything...only to leave me for her again.
It is actually embarrassing when I sit and think about all we've been through
and sometimes I ask, what am I gaining?
Did I gain a love, only to lose it?

As women, do we fall in love to be in love?
are we tired of being single, that we just enjoy the companionship?
 do we settle because we feel like maybe I could change you, maybe I could make you love me how I need to be loved
or maybe we start off and we see all the signs but we ignore, we ignore them because sometimes the wrong thing almost always feel like it's the right thing.
or maybe he does everything right, he just has a thing for other bitches sometimes...
maybe he's perfect, maybe he does everything right, maybe he loves you too good
maybe you should have met him in another lifetime
maybe we could be, when we were just we
maybe i'll lose you the way I got you
maybe we'll work out
maybe I shouldn't love you so much
maybe I should love you this much
maybe we're forever

hopefully, we'll be forever
all i wanted was your love
all i ever need was your love

don't ask for much

just need someone who wants to be with me and only me.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Monday, January 31, 2011


i dont even know how to ignore you
ahhh, you make me crazy.
lol, but i just LOVE you so much...

crazy, crazy

top 6

always on repeat- Monica- Superman, Here I am and One in a Lifetime

My favorite song(s) on repeat:
Sure Thing-Miguel
My Piece- Miguel
Excuse Me- Jazmine Sullivan
Long Way Down- Keyshia Cole
Don't Deserve You- Lloyd Banks ft Jeremih
Start it Up- Lloyd Banks


you get on my nerves.
my last fucking nerve.


i miss simplicity.

i think i made a wrong turn back there somewhere

sometimes i think im living another life
i dont know what the fcuk im doing
i dont know whats next im just waiting
waiting on God to rescue me.

What you won't stand for, but you do anyway...

being that no one reads my blog but myself, its actually like a personal diary. 
i hate that i know shit and i never have the balls to say it
i hate baby mommas
i dont wanna say i hate baby mommas because someones gonna think im talking about dres baby mama and im not
but i swear that i will never be a baby momma i will only be a wife
i changed my number
i miss my old number
i can write to vent my feelings because its the only outlet i have
my life is an open book basically because i dont have one
my whole life besides my school life revolves around a nigga
and who knows what he is doing
atleast i can admit it
im not ashamed
even if he is a cheater, id leave before i ever cheated
its just not for me
im completely satisfied 
even if i give give give
but you know the story
maybe someone will read this and say
"she is dumb"
but think what you want
its my life and i can make all the mistakes i want