Love is a Motherf@#$!

That's in my Diddy-Dirty Money voice

Yesterday, I fell in love
don't know why I gave my heart
if i had the chance to do it all over again

i would do it just like this.

you can't tell I f@#$ with you, i needed you

hold you, kiss you, miss you
need you, just like this

breathe you

couldn't get rid of you
give my all, you take it from me

touch you

just like this--> you like when I touch you like this
you need me to love you, you know
it feels good to hold me, you know


just like this

My heart is not connected to my brain

My heart would say it's ok, just follow me...

but my brain would say 'Jasmin stop and think about the pros and cons.'

My heart would say it's ok, give him a second chance

but my brain would say 'Jasmin, do what is best for you, don't live for what-ifs'

My heart would let you love me

but my brain would say 'Jasmin, THINK'

My heart would say be happy for right now

but my brain would say 'Jasmin, be happy forever; don't settle for the now'

My heart would fall madly in love

but my brain would say 'just relax, you have time'

My heart would be in a rush, just to be broke

my brain would allow me to ease the pain

Are you a man basher?

when a guy makes you cry, do you believe that every man who you meet afterwards will make you cry? will these be tears of joy and love or will they be tears of heartache and abandonment?

A lot of times when my girlfriends and I discuss heartaches I really start thinking about every guy who has hurt me...I start thinking that maybe all guys 'aint' shit...I absolutely hate to see a girl friend of mine hurt or sad...I see all the great qualities in the women around me and I always wonder what kind of jerk would treat these beautiful women like this or like that. But then I realize most of these guys are not even jerks...and thats when we (ladies) get together and we talk about how 'guys aint shit' because no matter if they are short or tall, fat or skinny, smart or dumb, rich or poor...they somehow manage to leave a trail of broken hearts behind them. I believe that heart break is inevitable but I also believe that love is inevitable as well. Recently, when I was hurt I talked so much shit about this guy to make myself feel better but deep down inside I can honestly say that he is a great guy and I can honestly say that about my ex-boyfriend as well; but when a new guy hurts me I compare it to the time I was hurt before and I think damn "same movie, just different characters..." As women we don't know why guys do the things they do or why we allow them to drive us to do some of the crazy shit we do...we just know that it happens...

so my question is 'do you man bash?'

I honestly think I allow my 'potentials' to start from scratch. I don't carry on the baggage from past relationships to current ones even though it is hard not to compare heartache to heartache.

and if you do, does it mean that you have been hurt so much before that it is hard for you to appreciate a good man..?

Why lie?

I remember my mother used to say lie, liar and all variations of the word 'lie' were bad words and I always thought she was childish for saying that but now as a semi-adult I understand. I hate being lied to, i hate being mislead. As a person you want me to believe your being honest and open with me when you are only telling me 50% of the truth and the rest is being left to my imagination. 50% of the truth is 100 lies. Maybe its just me, I say exactly what I mean and

if I don't mean it you will not catch me saying it.

so you said

yesterday I posted a blog. VENTING.

i took it down because those feelings i felt yesterday or that day, i should never give any person the power to alter my mood or change my writing. i won't write a blog cursing about a man because for every man who makes me upset, God-willing there will be another man who makes me smile.

im not usually the type to bash men, but im not the type to get played.

i guess nobody is the type to get played...but whenever it does happen to me I go back and reevaluate everything I did. but this time I can't say what I did wrong. but I can say that nobody deserves to be lied to. I can not stand a liar...why say you will, when you won't. why would you say that you can, but you WON'T. I don't understand. I guess there are alot of things I will never understand.

i won't understand boys who call themselves men

i don't understand your lies when you keep calling them truths

Single me...

i've been single. im currently in a relationship. i don't know how i like it, when your single you move on your own drum, when your in a relationship you move as a unit. Units? Me? I move as a single force; i like it that way. I like it, but im wondering "did my ex screw me over so bad, that i'd rather just be alone?" but wait--back to this relationship thing, how does this work again? Is the single Jasmin anti-relationship? or is the single Jasmin just not ready for the relationship Jasmin.

Make me smile

Ever since the passing of Davon I haven't really posted; I haven't had much to say. I've been weird. I miss him, but I know he is resting in Paradise.

I've been thinking of all things that make me smile, and I have come to the conclusion that it is the small stuff.

1. I love when people smile at me...it makes me happy

2. I love when people open up around me; people are usually so guarded around me so when they open up it makes me happy

3. Laugh with me

4. Give me a GREAT hug

5. Tell me a story

6. Show me your talent

7. Show me your heart

8. Be you

9. Sing-A-Long to songs with me

10. Rap battle with me----im nice on the mic, or the hairbrush, or the pop bottle

Man Laws

these are the things that I feel like all MEN should do, regardless but especially if you like her...

1. open doors

2. walk on the right side; the right side is the outside

3. if she's important to YOU, tell her she's beautiful

4. protect her

5. ask questions

6. make her feel special

7. ask for her help

8. be a gentle-MAN

9. be respectful

10. give up your seat

11. help her with her coat

12. help her down the stairs

13. give up your seat

14. ask her if she needs anything

15. tip WELL

16. carry bags

17. take her out

18. don't walk ahead of her

19. don't walk behind her; walk with her

20. listen to her; remember small things about her

quotes

"I'm selfish, impatient, & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, & at times hard to handle... but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you SURE as hell don't deserve me at my best." -Marilyn Monroe

One of my Favorite poems

Everything in my life always seems to be aligned. I believe that. I believe in God. I believe that he shows me different things so that I can respond ...even if you don't believe in God, I know that you believe that alot of the things that happen to you..don't just happen at once--but when they happen or are happening, you are worried. I've learned not to worry, and thats where the Footprints in the Sand poem comes in...whenever you think you are alone, you aren't...come back to this poem and it will be clear...

Footprints in the Sand


One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson



be blessed,
Miss Understood

Dreams...

Whenever you decide that you want something, you never can give up. You have to stay driven, stay focused...but what happens when someone wakes you up from that dream...

The thing about dreaming is that you can only dream when your sleeping...when you wake up its all over...So if im dreaming about the future don't wake me. Don't wake me because I don't exactly know what it is im dreaming about...if this was MTV Diary...my opening would say "you think you know, but you have no FUCKING idea...Shit, I barely even know." I don't know what I want to dream about, I barely know if I want to sleep. I don't want my dreams to turn into nightmares and my nightmares to turn into reality.

I'll tell you what happens when someone wakes you up from your dream,you get your ass up and you DO!!! Do what you never thought that you could do...do what everyone believed you couldn't do. Be the person who everyone else inspires to be...I keep saying im afraid to wake up from this DREAM, and then I realized im doing something they believed I couldn't do. I beat the odds...Mama, daddy look at me!!! Im almost there...and when I get there...Im gonna Take a knee and thank the Man then get back to the money...

you ain't know, i gotta go

Miss Understood <3

Random

We buy our way out of jail but we can't buy freedom,We buy a lot of clothes when we don't really need them,Things we buy to cover up what's inside.

Kanye West

Now I can let these dream killers kill my self esteem-or use my arrogance as steam to power my dreams!!!

Kanye West

”I stay in tune with the sun, stars and moon, cause behind bars you're doomed if your mind can't consume”- AZ

“Im a trackstar running thru life, chasing my dream.” 50 Cent

However good or bad you feel about your relationship, the person you are with at this moment is the "right" person, because he or she is the mirror of who you are inside. - Deepak Chopra

quotes

i just read this

"you don't know what's missing until its gone, but you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives..." I don't know who originally said it but I thought it was great. It relates to every aspect of life...